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at times like this, i just don't feel like doing anything but fly far far away and never coming back. those kind of feeling like people totally ignore you and you feel lost like you don't even belong there ... mom, i think i really need you. i have been feeling lonely for ages that finally, i think i am settling down in this lonely life that my ability to properly communicate with others is slowly diminishing. i can't help it. i will just let it happen. but i still hope that, after a hurricane, comes a rainbow .... would happen to me.

go away

why? why do I have to be a second compared to you? why are you always ahead of me? you know that i hate those guys who are ALWAYS ahead of me? i want to be on top. i like the fact that we have those things in common but, leave me alone. don't come in my way, please..... let me like what I like ... at least before you like them. you go away

i really don't want this

i am tired of being alone all the time. i want to go to red-cross flag day on 7th of september but i'm afraid to meet new people. i'm afraid that they might be mean to me. i'm a loser. i don't know what's going on. ...